From the club, to dinner, to a night of physical intimacy, all in the space of 48 hours. I’m ashamed, I feel dirty, disappointed in myself and feel less of who I am. From observing his space he seemed to be with someone, which he verified, a relationship. My friend told me he’s been talking to her too, since the night at the club and asked her to be his date to a wedding. I think I know what this is. Sent him a message about me hating complications & drama. This was curtain call, no communication and contact, blocked him. I’m yet to tell my friend, I don’t think I will. Perhaps there’s a chance for them to be together. I hate this silly situation. I want to be alone & disappear for a while & erase those memories. Focusing on work to escape.