I failed to admit i was depressed for the past 4 years plus. I thought i was mentally strong enough but i am beginning to feel myself drift away. Suicide thoughts are now consistent. I have tried everything nothing seems to be working. It’s a new year and my plans are already falling apart. People feel i am fine but the have no idea the battles i am fighting. I am tired of talk to people without solutions, i feel i am just a story teller.