Ever since I put to bed (some 10 months ago), everyday I get violent/ have thoughts of killing myself. I’ve seen a therapist, I was better for a moment but it’s worse now. I’m even scared for myself because sometimes after acting, I realize what I did could have killed. Everyone around me thinks it’s uncontrollable anger that makes me act in such ways but I know it’s not. I’ve almost ended my beautiful career because of this strange thoughts. Deep down I know I need help.