I feel cursed but sometimes I just tell myself not to overthink or be ungrateful but life keeps getting harder. I was actually blessed with friends this year,I never made friends. I am like a dark cloud ,too many experiences for my young age and whether I like it or not it has defined me. Whenever something makes me hopeful or happy,it’s only a matter of time before it crashes. I know God be for me,I believe,I just wanna see it too.