I had sex for the first time with a guy I just met recently, it was amazing but he hasn’t called or chatted me up and I feel so bad . Something I kept for more than 20 years gone like that to a person who doesn’t even care. I don’t know what to do I know God will never forgive me. I don’t even have it in me to pray anymore. I’m sooo sad and the fact I can’t even talk to the guy again just makes me feel cheap.