Why everything is messing up for me,why, God is real or is it that he doesn’t exist? I’ve never been disappointed in life before, everything comes so easy, now it’s hard on me. I lost dad when he was supposed to enjoy his labor, tried UK and Spain all I got is disappointment. Where am I suppose to start from again? Yesterday was birthday, I was happy but today sadness. I’ve capitalized my life on traveling 😭.