The Beginning.

I was a kid then, probably 7-8. That was the starting point of my curtailed woes. Mom was looking for me that evening and then she saw me on the roof of our neighbour’s house, playing ‘ love ‘ with a girl my age . I can still remember that moment, she took me and gave me the beating of my life. Then I think the next day, she proceeded to give me the late sex education and I told her of how I’d been debauched by numerous people around us. From my brother’s friends to our neighbour upstairs to the man opposite her shop and other heart wrenching experiences. But I would never forget when she asked me if I’d done it with my father, he was sleeping in the parlour and I remember looking at him and vehemently saying no. Years later , I thought what would have made my mother ask such question. I blamed her for most of my depressed teen age .

One comment

  1. I’m so sorry that you had to grow up feeling this way. As a child, it’s really easy to get influenced by things in your immediate environment and seeing as you were basically abused sexually by people who were meant to guide you, it’s not surprising that you subconsciously mimicked the traumatic experiences you went through. Being asked such a question by your mother is an obvious display of her insecurities about your father and the situation you were in, and it is understandable that it made you sad. Please just know that it wasn’t your fault and it’s going to be okay. You were a child, but you aren’t anymore. Please, take care of yourself.

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