I’m in my finals, I’m just 24 but last year came with a debilitating health challenge, I’m now a diabetic. At first, I was diagnosed with 585, it dropped down and I went back to school. I went on remission (diabetic remission), it was almost normal. It happened after I went hypo, now it’s back. I stopped using my insulin when it went on remission, now I don’t know what to do. It doesn’t go less than 190, it is as high as 250. I haven’t spoken to my doctor in a while because I had a hard time accepting it and was suicidal. Everyone are supportive but I wake up each day with a heavy heart. Just yesterday I just had this thought that I won’t live past 30. I’ve been unable to shake it.