I feel so hollowed out by everything that has happened. Sometimes I think about dying. I think about it a lot, actually. I’m so glad my dog is by my side, without her I probably would have done it long ago. I dare not even put this in my journal. I tried to reach out to a friend, who wanted to talk, but when that time came I was too depressed to even do that. I hope things get better, I just don’t feel confident that they will. I know its in my power. But at this point, why bother? What is left? What is there to look forward to in life?

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  1. You keep a journal too? Well, that’s actually good. Writing down how you feel can really go a long way in helping you relieve some tension. And I understand that you couldn’t write this in your journal, sometimes I omit certain things from my journal too for certain reasons. Anyway, it’s going to be fine. If you need someone to talk to, I’m here whenever you are ready. What you wrote really resonated with me so I had to console you, though I’m not sure I did a good job. And pets naturally make everything better, I’m glad your dog does that for you at least. Please, be okay. You are the best.

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