I think I want to leave my relationship because I’m certain my boyfriend is manipulative and there’s no way out other than leaving. Our sexual life is weird, I’m a pleaser so I don’t care but he doesn’t take initiative to do anything, if he does, it always seems forced. I love him yeah but maybe I need to leave to understand my self better because I feel lost. I’m not sure how life would be afterwards but I guess we’d find out. I’m tired of complaining about things, I’m just gonna leave and oh, when I’m trying to get through with the breakup, his father dies. Sigh! What kind of person would I be if I leave now ? I want to be there for him and I will . This means I’d have to hurt inside and comfort him this period. So complicated and yet not that complicated.