I cheated on my ex twice (sometimes last year). She somehow forgave me and everything was fine. Until I started noticing some things about the guys she texts. I complained about it and we fought countless times ( to a point where i have 3 scars ). I never wanted to believe the relationship was toxic, she used to term herself as a spec. Well i tried so hard to prove to her that I really love her but things kept getting worse to a point where she travels and doesn’t tell me about it. Found out that she lied about some things, i still tried to forget about what she did ( because i loved her and wanted to have peace ). Last night we were supposed to have a date, she stood me up only to get to her house the morning and some guy had to park behind me. I told her someone came to visit her and she came out of her house only to enter the guy’s car and not mine. I came down from my car and tried to approach her, only for her to humiliate and i made a fool of myself ( all because i wanted things to be right ) . Guess what? I saw her in town driving that same guy’s car today. I really regret everything i did and now we’ve broken up. I’M SO PAINED.