I want to break up with her but I find it hard. Reasons: I don’t want to hurt her, I think deep down I do love her so much but I want to leave. I don’t trust her because she once cheated. I can’t get my head over it. It’s passed but I am forcing myself to do things now, like to kiss, say I love you, get clingy and stuffs like that, it doesn’t come from within anymore. So I just want to let go but I can’t f**king do it!