I was 19, still in the university, my then boyfriend (now ex) was 21. I wasn’t ready for that big change and most of all, I was sure i didn’t want a baby with “him”. We were just 2 months into our relationship afterall but i could see a ton of red flags already. I quickly took the abortion pill but since then the hole in my heart has never closed. I am so sorry for making such a stupid mistake of not being careful and now, I ended the life of a sweet little angel. How will I face God, I’m happily married now but it still hurts. I miss my baby, I’m so sorry I couldn’t keep you. I’m so hurt and I don’t know what to do anymore. It hurts, everyday. I miss you. Please forgive me, my sweet little angel. I love you so much. God, it hurts so bad , I need someone to cry on. I’m tired of crying in the dark. I need someone to tell me I’ve been forgiven. I want to hold my baby. I’m so sorry. I’m so very sorry.