I have only loved one guy all my life and he took me for a joke, it broke me to pieces took me a while to get over it. Ever since then I made a vow to never be serious with any guy, I’ve done this for a while now by playing on emotions, having flings and never loving but I’m so tired of it. Stopped sometime in February and I’ve not gone back to it but I cannot seem to genuinely love anybody what is wrong with me ? Can I ever love or do I just revert back to my old ways?PS:In my early twenties.