Lately, i have been feeling really down. A lot has been going on in my life. First son nothing to show, family pressure, seeing my mates doing well in different areas. Sometimes i feel like ending it all, but i can’t really hurt myself and die (probably because i am a coward too). I wake up everyday, i don’t feel like speak to anyone, i don’t take calls or reply chats, nothing in the world amuses. My girlfriend on the other hand has been really supportive, despite the calls i don’t pick, chats i don’t, texts she sends to check up on me that i don’t acknowledge. Sometimes i feel she’s gonna get tire and cheat or leave me cos she’s human, i have tried calling off the relationship (it’s better i stay alone with my moods and my burden) but she keeps holding. On the other hand i don’t want to lose her, but i feel she deserves better, someone to give her the love she deserves, the care, the attention and all. People often see me as a hard man cause i suck at showing emotions, i can’t talk to anyone cause all they want to hear is stories, I just felt i should vent here. Thanks for the audience.