I don’t know what love really feels like . Yes I’ve been in relationships and currently in one but I don’t understand what it truly feels like . All i know is i care enough to pay her bills because i hate people thinking I’m incapable . I sincerely have deep trust issues to love and be heartbroken . There’s so much pressure to be a man . Although I’m financially okay for a guy of 25 but it feels like the whole world is on my shadow and i still don’t know what my purpose in life is . Basically I’m a lost soul trying to find a meaning to life without losing touch of the emotions those around me bring towards me . I want a beautiful home with a few kids and a wife that would understand me but that seems far fetched in this country I find myself . How fucked am I because I’m losing it daily.