I am glad I could speak on this platform without been judged. I have been happily married for 13years and I have 2 boys. I have a very loving husband who I love him so much. Just October last year, my whole being turned around. There is a married man I used to date when I was in the university. I loved him so much. He is the only man who can make me go 3-4 rounds of sex without getting tired. Our body chemistry was mad . I got pregnant for him then but aborted it without his knowledge then. He never stopped loving me because even when I was married he still wanted me but I told him I can’t do it. I have avoided him for 13years but he still nurse the thought of me in his head. He sends me messages at times calling me sweet names but I just reply normally. Fast forward to last year October he called me and said he was coming to my area and will like to say hi, I said okay. He came and the first thing he did was kissed me and immediately he woke up that hibernated feeling. My issue now is that I do not know how to leave this affair , I fall in love with him more and more. I tried blocking him on all platforms but I can’t. Just talking about him gives me urge to see him. I am madly in love with him. I am scared it might cause more harm to my marriage. He said he can never let me go again. If I refuse to reply his messages or calls he will write me an epistle begging me not to leave him. I don’t know what to do.