I finally went out with this guy that has been practically begging me to go out with him and that has liked me since like a year now or so . He isn’t a nice guy tbh and he is very blunt and straightforward and yeah we went out . I had plans to just go back home immediately but yeah I went to his hotel room and I went because I’m stupid isn’t it obvious ? We ended up kissing, it felt so good but that it was all I wanted. And other things happened and when I wanted to opt out, he was begging to have sex with me and becoming quite insistent. I just did it so it won’t be like rape after this he took me out to dinner. Texted me this morning sha everything seemed normal, I texted back he hasn’t replied but he is posting on his stupid story lol. He is online too but not responding to my messages but anyways he looks busy looks like he is having a party in his room with his friends. I just feel soooooo soooooo stupid like I want this feeling to go away. I don’t have feelings though. But I feel so stupid for giving myself to him. Please don’t make me feel worse.