okay first thing first, I really love my man . He has talked about marriage and us having babies but I told him I ain’t ready yet because I ain’t ready yet. He gets pissed about it, we quarrel about it but somehow we settle it. He has taken out time to try changing my perspective / mindset but at the moment, I fear I might be pregnant for him. Though next week is my due date, I already have body signs that are giving me concerns. Made up my mind to just wait it out till I miss the date but, its been a scary ass week already. Like what if I really am pregnant ? Cause I have been pregnant before but then when I was with my ex, I had to regretfully terminate it and I never want to be in that situation again but what if?? My man is responsible , he would be super glad to know am carrying his child, he would even want to go straight ahead to marrying me before the bump shows but the problem is me, I am not mentally fit for marriage or motherhood yet despite his trying to make me, so am here thinking of how to summon courage to terminate the pregnancy without his knowledge if it proves positive and prolly end the relationship afterwards so I don’t get to face him.