It hasn’t ended in tears yet but it’s beginning to feel like it will end it tears. Almost two years now (which will seem relatively small) but I knew what I was going to go through asking them (1 person) but I still went ahead. But looking back now I had no freaking idea what I was getting myself into. You see I have never been in a long distance relationship and I felt it’s something I could do when the time comes for them to leave. But right now sitting on my toilet sit typing this message with shaky hands and a very loud beating heart; I am really scared. There’s still love but it’s really exhausting not to be alone and still be alone. The fact that I think I can pull through but my partner seems like they can’t is the scary aspect . I’m a mess tbvh!