Nothing as challenging as owning up to being the bad guy , confronted some bitter truths about me today . I’ve been really toxic to people and to myself , wow I was so pained and bitter because of what someone did to me and I was really mean , reminded him that he’d be nothing if I didn’t make the sacrifices I made . Oh em gee . I was really abusive but thank God for my psychiatrist/therapist i’m willing to let go of the demons and become a better person . Lord knows I tried to suppress some memories but you can’t truly move on till you’ve dealt with your past . Now how do I get this person I abused mentally to forgive me . I know it’s unthinkable but…oh well🙁🙁🙁right now I’m probably his most hated person since he said he hates me . But dude did me dirty too.