Emotionally effed up girl

Well that’s what he said , he said that he never loved me . I snooped around in his phone and it seems he’s really crazy about this new one . It just hurts that he said and did everything he’s saying and doing to her for me too and look where we are now . Me crying out my eyes months after I thought I was finally healing while he enjoys himself . God I’m so broken. Why me????What did I do to deserve this? Where did I go wrong Lord where now??