Bipolar disorder

 I have been in different relationships but I realized when I started dating my current boyfriend..We had an issue which resulted in breaking up for about 2months,then we got back together..Now we had an issue which is entirely as a result of my impatience ,anger and impulsivity…And he is hurt that I would hurt him again and doesn’t wanna go on and I am hurt as well because I love him with all my heart..He is the only true friend that I have and he is my confidante as well…In the two months that we were apart,I went to hell because I am bipolar and now suicide is the only thing that feels like a way to end my hurt,pain,regret and loneliness.