Confused

I’m dating this person that already had a partner. When we were in talking stage I didn’t know the person had a partner until few weeks after, then I was already into this person and we got along real well. The stupid decision I made was going into a relationship with this person knowing the partner was still there. We talk often, the person calls and tells me stuff about going out, having suitors and even talk about going to see the other partner. Now the issues is I’m very jealous, I want the person all to myself. The love is strong “I guess” but I’m a very insecure person and I feel helpless 🤦🏻🤦🏻

Focusing on myself🥺

I’ve had a shitty year, I was mentally down for a while. I thought relationships could help me but no, it was the worst mistake of my life. I have been so far from God and I’m scared that he won’t accept me back. I realize that I have to love myself and put God first before anything. If we look back at it our mothers were right. I hope that I can heal from my past and move on 🥺🥹