Been dating this guy for 9 years now and I’m no longer in love with him but I’m still with him. Years of him cheating, manipulating, gaslighting me and making me look stupid. I would cry for days, I lost my mind, I would verbally fight other girls whom he was texting and lie about it even when the truth was looking at us in the eyes. After all the times I went through all of it, now I don’t feel anything and now he’s now he shows love more but the old me is gone so we quarrel about affection and love making. I’m single and searching while still with him.