I’m 19 and my boyfriend is 24, I’m a very beautiful girl with a nice physique and my boyfriend is very cute. The guy has a car and he’s a forex trader, he also has other side jobs. He’s been chasing me since July, i met him on Instagram but we were just off and on, so we finally met around October and the first day I slept over at his place but we didn’t have sex. I told him i was on my period because i didn’t want anything to happen. I’m a virgin and I’m not ready for sex yet, but we kissed and touched ourselves. We were still in contact after our first meeting, my birthday past but he didn’t get me any gifts, i didn’t take it seriously because we weren’t dating. The 2nd time we were supposed to meet he said that I’ll be the one to sponsor us. We went on an ice cream date and i paid for it and then i slept over at his place and i told him that i wasn’t ready for sex that we’ll do it next time when we meet, we even bathed together. After that we didn’t meet until 3 weeks later because i kept persuading him for us to meet and he said that’s he’s expecting a huge sum of money that when he gets it that we’ll meet. I told him that before we’ll have sex that he has to ask me out first because he keeps acting as if we’re in a relationship. This guy has never taken me out on a date before, this guy has never given me gifts or even send me money but he always flaunts his wealth. I slept over at his place again last month which was November but i was on my period so we didn’t have sex, that was when he asked me out. I asked him why he never gifts me or taken me out on a date and he said that he doesn’t have money that when he has he’ll do more for me, he keeps talking about how he’ll disflower me when next we meet. This guy only sends me transport fare when i ask him and it doesn’t exceed # 5k, i have to add money to complete transport fare, if i tell him to come pick me up from my place he’ll say that his fuel won’t be enough, and he buys me food only when i sleep over at his place, i feel he doesn’t love me. I don’t want someone that doesn’t love me to disvirgin me, I really want to have sex but not with the wrong person. What pained me the most was when i asked him to get me food when i was leaving his place he said he doesn’t have money but before i came to visit him he sent a screenshot on how much he fixed his car, he spent like #60k. The amount i saw on his transaction history was 6 million (6m was the money that entered his account and 2 point something million was the amount that left his account). I really love him but i don’t want to be used. I feel he doesn’t love me, i feel like after we have sex that he’ll just dump me. My ex that i was dating before he died normally sends Uber to pick me up and even when i want to spend on him he doesn’t even let me, my ex gifts me back to back and even sends me money without asking, he was so caring, kind, attentive, cute, and understanding, good guys are really rare. My ex is even younger than my boyfriend but he treats me better, I really miss my ex. They’re guys out there that wants me but i still choose this guy, even the smallest gift he hasn’t given me. He’ll promise me something and he’ll not deliver, when i remind him he’ll tell me that’s he’s broke, i feel like I’m not his main girlfriend. Even when i want us to meet he’ll say that he’s broke, we haven’t seen since last month, I promised myself that I won’t go to his house again until he takes me out on dates and treat me better. He’s been acting distant lately and I’m also matching his energy. I’ve been complaining to my boyfriend about how he acts but he’s not changing, he keeps telling me that he’s broke but i feel like he’s lying.
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