I feel like my life is fucked i won’t lie, nothing around me is motivating me, no support system, nothing i can fall back to NYSC is finishing next month, i’m the fucking last born nobody understands my struggles, i can go a week without talking to a family member or mom, everything is just fucked. I have been applying to a lot of jobs for a long time and none had worker yet. Knowing that the little i have i still need to help my elder ones some who were teenagers before i was born makes me mad, an older sibling just ask me for an assistant the money is too small for a married man to ask for but i don’t have, and i feel very very bad. My parents have too many kids and they’re not rich i can’t question, this whole thing will affect all of us, imagine if we’re just fucking 2 or 3. I need to find a way to rescue myself and stay very lowkey till i get things fixed, i need help fuck me.