I am 22 years old and I’ve been through a lot of trauma. I just healed from depression and severe anxiety but God has been good to me. Losing my parents and my partner breaking up with me really had a bad effect on me. I have this problem of not being able to say no to any man that wants to sleep with me all because of the little assistance they render and I don’t want to make whoever I’m seeing feel bad by saying no and it’s very wrong. Few weeks ago I had sex with 4 different people without protection and I felt so guilty and it didn’t happen the same day (within 2 days) but after I met the first person the second texted me for us to see and I couldn’t say no the other two are people I’ve been seeing for a long time because he gives me money and assists me. I feel stuck and a part of me is aware that I am doing things wrong but it’s as if it controls me. I really want to stop and focus on myself and other better things that are of good purpose and be able to say no infact to cut them off. I am trying I know it’s hard to process all I’ve listened but I’m just lost. My first sex wasn’t what I wanted a man that was married forcefully had sex with me and his wife gave birth few days after he took advantage of me. Around that time I just finished secondary school then. I feel scared and lost and i sometimes feel like I’ve really offended God with all this things and I want to make things right