I have always been the friend that have to wait for everything, never chosen at first for anything, not smart enough for anything, went to uni late, didn’t graduate with a good grade, tried my best reading but it wasn’t enough, didn’t have money to sort like most of my friends, my friends had serious relationships and after graduation they are all married to a supportive man with a child and some with children but here I am single for how many years, no money, no support system, just learning work that doesn’t want to enter my head. What did I do wrong. Am I cursed. Why can’t I be like my mates. I’m always acting tough but sometimes I can’t help it but pity myself, my inner child is crying. This is not the life I want. Will I be fine. Will things ever work out for me. I’m not having a good time on earth. 29years of just being there. I just need a miracle.