I and my ex were going back and forth for a little while, even a few months after I found out he had another girlfriend. He never agreed they were together in my face but I won’t lie and say I didn’t know the truth. I never tried to address it with him though. Then a month ago, I blocked him and tried to move on, try celibacy too because it felt like I was allowing my pussy dictate my life . He created a new account and tried to reach out to me, but said I shouldn’t text back then tried to call me. I didn’t pick up, I blocked him and made sure his gf saw it. He was so pissed and I was proud of myself. Now I’m so horny and I keep thinking about him, I don’t want him and I can’t stop thinking about him either. We understood ourselves so well, sexually and otherwise. I feel like I’ve lost my soulmate and I’m just trying to go about my daily life pretending idgaf.