It’s been over two years I felt this way, never knew heartbreak hits different in your late twenties. At first, I was not bothered, then numb. Now, I listen to heartbreak songs, leave to cry in the restroom, lose focus while at work, get carried away in thoughts, blame myself, accept it, then cry again. I want this pain gone, my heart is bleeding terribly. I think I need a therapist. Or a stranger that I can relay all that happend to. I’m not myself
in Confession
Connotare 
As someone who’s been there before, it sucks. Crying will help you, but don’t blame yourself.
Even if you caused it, simply accept responsibility for the part you played in it.
Talk it out. Journal. And for the love of God, stop listening to songs about heartbreak.
We could talk in the comments section, so you’ll feel heard. It helped me when I went through mine.