I imagined my adult life will be like a rap video, full of chics, swag & everyday party .because I felt like I’d find my niche easily & blow up hard. Lo & behold, I’ve zero hoes, never had a girlfriend, no social life, fighting demons, struggling with my trading career for over 3 years now, masturbating like crazy. I’m scared this might just be it, no sport car with suicide door for me. But hope still convinces me that my desire is achievable & possible 🤞