We’ve been dating for over a year. Few months in he told me he had a son; I didn’t mind. Due to my hormonal issues, and the treatment being that I need to try to see if I can ovulate and take in, we decided to try having a child. I was grateful he wanted to try with me. But it was so challenging and the treatments seemed not to be working because my symptoms resurfaced after every round of treatment, so I told him I didn’t want to keep trying for a child as it felt like I was putting him under undue pressure for my own issues. We kept on, amidst couple fights and all, but just happy in general and open to each other, or so I thought. 10-11 months pass, I made a discovery. He had a one month old new born with his baby mama. I had no idea. I didn’t know he was sleeping with her. I recognise everyone is entitled to having their child from whomever, but why did he go behind me? His excuse was he wanted a baby girl and I was not forth coming but he had hoped it would be me. Am I God that creates children? How do I heal from this? Am I selfish for feeling betrayed? And he went behind me, kept sleeping with her, nurtured her pregnancy, birthed a whole child, people around him knew and I was in the dark. How do I heal?