We’ve been dating for 2 years, had lots of sex when we started dating and now, we’re engaged and didn’t even have sex on our engagement, we’ve only had sex twice since December last year and we use celibacy as an excuse but deep down. I know I am in the wrong place. My heart craves true intimacy. The friendship we have is beautiful but it doesn’t make up for this numbness in my heart. I want to be loved, desired, yearned for and truly known. But where do I even start from. Why did i even say yes. I’m in a prison of my own making.