My husband has verbally abused me and sex starved me for 2 years since our son’s birth. I thought my weight gain was the issue, so with my childhood friend’s help, I hit the gym, got sexier than ever, but he still ignored me. Found out he was a serial cheat, even with that bitch my so called best friend who always came to consoled me, hurt. I seduced and had sex with my childhood friend. I’m not justifying it, but I feel no guilt. For the first time in our 6 years marriage and 9 years relationship. Another guy touched me and it feels right. 3 months on, no regrets. He refused to sign divorce papers, which I’m pursuing. What scares me is my friend suggesting I carry his child. He’s always been there for me, but I’m worried about the legal and emotional mess. I need to prioritize my son and myself.