Would I have appreciated being married more if I had looked for a husband like he said. If I had to be married to an emotionally unavailable and cheating spouse again, I would always keep regretting it over and over again. The pain I feel is not easy to deal with and telling me to turn a blind eye is just the height of wickedness. Can you as a man turn your back on your friend constantly playing you for a fool or stealing your money. Men never want to fathom the idea of their wives or girlfriend cheating on them but we women have to know it and still play dumb and blind, what level of selfishness and wickedness is that. Call me delusional because this marriage is a fucking facade and a rip off. A sacred institution when it has to do with a woman but with the man all is fair and right stupid ass institution.