I’m not envious, I’m just finding it hard to be sincerely happy for people when I am unhappy with my own self. It has always felt like I take two steps forward and six steps backward with how hard I work and then I see my mates or even younger people getting more and end up leaving me behind because they had a better advantage that I don’t have. I’m happy for them, just not as happy as I would if the congratulations was vice versa.