I was in a very toxic situationship with this guy and we fought so many times. He wanted us to get married but I couldn’t. He’s not my type at all- short and not ‘spiritual’. He made me move on from my ex and sex with him was very painful until I learnt how to take ‘him’. It’s been months since I ended the situation we were in. Now, thoughts of how good it was in the end won’t leave my head. I have been celibate for 7 months but last week I called him. He’s in a relationship now but we had sex. It lasted a few minutes and then his girlfriend called him. We haven’t spoken since then and I haven’t been able to get it all out of my mind.