3 years celibate just self building. My last relationship was everything I wanted until I caught him cheating then I walked away. When I left, I promised not to date for a long while and now 3 years later I think my dating life is so messy. I find myself not paying attention when I am being wooed, I would not even save their numbers, a part of me just assumes they’d cheat again, I feel emotionless and afraid to commit. I love the idea of love but I just don’t know why these wonderful men I meet don’t matter to me. A year ago my ex reached out, he wanted to settle down but I still felt absolutely nothing. What’s wrong with me. I want to feel love again, the type that would allow me give in freely. Why am I so up tight. Gosh!