Looking back from day one all I do is cry for myself. I have always been the off person in every social gathering. I have never been chosen, if I manage to even have friends it just ends, I don’t really know how to keep friends. I have tried but it doesn’t just work. I know I have a very odd character, same as the people I meet. When I was in primary school they used to call me a mad woman, still makes me cry up till now. When I was in secondary school I’m always looking unkept an old, my peers mentioned how I look old in my face. Same as university, I have people consider me as pretty but some said I’m ugly and old. When will all these end. Now my mother is my biggest problem, she reminds me how all my mates are married with kids but I’m just here. How she should have been coming to visit me in my husband house, she has sons but hasn’t visited them. My relationships, I have always been used by these men. My body disgust me so bad, all the people I have slept with because of relationship and none ever treated me good just their sex toy. Omo