I love kids, I literally raised my siblings, being the first daughter. I imagine myself as a mom and having a mini me. I just never imagine myself with pregnancy or going through childbirth. Just the thought of it scares me. It’s beginning to make me feel like I should avoid marriage all together, then again I want a family, I love love. I’m just scared and traumatized by the whole childbearing process. I’m 26 by the way.