Met someone last two years, it was a short thing sadly I can’t stop thinking about him. Something in me feels he is my person, been with other people but when things end with them I just grief the relationship from last two years and not the one that ended. Sad to say I have never been loved properly, it’s easy for the people I date to let me go without looking back. I have worked on myself thinking maybe it’s the way I present myself but I don’t know again. Will it get better. Will I ever find love. I love love, I just live my life and don’t make it the center of my existence but it’s sad and lonely sometimes. Almost everyone I know is loved up, I’m always the single one or the one dating people that don’t even like her that much. I’m staying celibate too because all the time I have had sex it’s because of the other person, I don’t even enjoy that stuff. I’m tired but hopefully it gets better soon.