Few weeks ago I and my ex broke up because he said I wasn’t giving him enough time and I wasn’t even motivating him in any way, I apologized and promised to change and be a better person which I did. I usually drop texts to check on him, call him even when he doesn’t pick or return any of the calls back same thing with the texts. The only way I could get him over the phone was if I hide my caller ID and he warned that I shouldn’t call him again that I should leave a message and wait until he replies. Omorrr I threw away my self respect and esteem outside the window all in the name of “love”. Only for me to wake up to a message from him telling me that he wants the relationship to pause for now and I always disturb him with my calls and I was like okay. A week after our breakup he sent me a message saying don’t I have things to do with my life, that why am I still calling with an unknown number, and between i and the God that I serve I never called him. But his words till date still hurts me, most time I try to sleep it always rings in my head “stop being stuck in one place go and get a life” it’s not my fault my life is like this, I still blame myself till this day for being too open and vulnerable around him, I barely even eat anything and I have been having serious panic attacks. All would be fine right🤧