I was born into Christianity and I am trying to actually become a Christian and find God for myself. But I noticed something really odd, I get uncomfortable when someone else who I think might be more spiritual is around me, doing their spiritual stuff. Sometimes I feel bad, like why can’t I feel the zeal you have to join deeper 3 times a day or pray for 2 hours straight. I’m not sure why there’s discomfort, I can’t describe it and I don’t like feeling, I don’t want to feel like that, I just want to find my God.