I’m in my early 20s. I’ve been dating this guy for 3 years now. I started dating him right after i left my toxic ex who beat me up. He’s a good man but I’m not attracted to him at all. I hate his body, I hate his smell, I hate everything about him but i just like the idea of dating him. He’s been a good motivator, advisor, and provider but I don’t love him. The thought of him touching me makes me want to throw up. I’m only keeping him around so that I have someone to marry incase no one marries me haha. Trust me I want to love him but I can’t. Even his voice irritates me.