With no one to even talk to, trust me nothing is as painful, frustrating as knowing you try out a whole year even new stuff and nothing to show for it, having loan to sort out as well as family looking forward to what you have to give after you already tried to give the little you had before joining them again. This life no easy for man🤦‍♂️, don’t even know what to do. I just hope next year will be better, dear God i pray