I’m depressed, lonely, emotional and sick. I’m leaving her cause of her very nasty past (history with men, high body count, abortion, aided abortion, friends with benefits, personal/family values, too much billing etc) she came into my life at a point I was lonely, all the girls I wanted didn’t want me and she was so easy to get and I was too fast with taking things up. She didn’t offend me but this mess is too much for me to clean up, I’m so sorry, anxiety is eating me up but this decision is for my future. I’ll take my time with girls next time and not rush things. We both loved each other and she’s become a better person since we started but I can’t cope. This is hard but necessary.

She doesn’t deserve this Part 2

I saw many reactions and females saying girls shouldn’t tell men about their past. I only feel bad about leaving her because she told me some of them, I tapped into her WhatsApp and saw a lot more for myself, she was with her friend with benefit at least once after we started, I’m not sure they had sex but they saw and she have many male friends. I leave my phone with her but she doesn’t want me to touch hers. You’re literally my first body count and I’m your maybe 20th or so. Would you wish your brother to be with a girl that had a rough past. I can decide to live my life anyhow I want but I know the consequences of every actions, I’m not a judgemental person that’s why I’m not going to hurt her feelings by telling her I’m leaving you’re this and that and you have done this and that. I’m in my mid 20s by the way. This girl I’ve spent more money on than my mom.