I am very sad and unhealed! So apparently, I cheated on my partner. Then he accepted me back but couldn’t trust me anymore. So he asked if I was hiding anything else. Which I confirmed not. Then he began asking me about my ex. Before then, he did a background check on me, more like hacked my phone and found out that I cheated on my ex too. Then what he did was ask for my exes number and then told my ex everything I did (cheating) when I was with him. I feel so remorseful and I have decided to take a new path to life. Which includes no cheating and lies. I have apologized to them, and I am trying to move on. But the guilt is there. I can’t seem to forgive myself for doing that to people that genuinely loved me. Although I thank God it happened so I could change and be a better person. Just trying to be happy again. But for now, I am not interested in men. Let me work on myself until I am ready for a relationship again. I need to heal and work on my toxicity.