Before meeting a girl for the 1st time, I watch interviews, YouTube videos of guys flirting, & read conversation starters. This transforms my personality for the day, making me seem like her dream guy. She feels enchanted, almost like she’d eat from my hand. But after I get what I want that day, I revert to my true, anxious, nonchalant self & ghost her. I wish I could keep that alter-ego alive, especially when I meet someone I’d truly want to stay with.