I’ve been seeing this guy for a year, I can’t say he’s everything especially in terms of money but I’ve been committed to him, we’re long distance as he’s in the US. This year is the hardest year of my life, everyday, I feel like I’m a failure. I used to have so much that I even give out but this year? It’s tough! It was my birthday last week and I couldn’t even afford a dress, I stayed home and cried. My boyfriend will be home in a month, he says we should try for a baby. I’ve decided to do everything (God willing) to get pregnant. Atleast if I relocate, I get to have a new life and I wouldn’t be bothered about little things like food or a roof over my head, it’ll be other forms of problem. I just need stability, I feel mentally exhausted, I need extra push in life. My child would push me and inspire me to keep living as right now, I hate life. I’m just ranting and hope everything goes as planned. Life is really tough